Mixed Episodes. The Dangerous One.

I have been experiencing mixed episodes, which are not nice and are not safe.
My symptoms of a mixed episode:

Agitation
Anxiety
Feeling of energy under my skin
Feeling low and up at the same time
Laughing at what should be distressing or at bad times
Impulsive behaviour
Rapid speech
Jumping from subject to subject
Racing thoughts

The suicide rate goes up for people like myself experiencing mixed episodes.
Why?
You have the energy to do it unlike a crushing,energy void of a depressive episode. Also if you suffer with anxiety too like me then that is a further risk because the future seems dark and the present is unbearable.

Unfortunately mixed episodes are very difficult to treat.